a message for you.
please excuse my dust as this blog site is still under construction.
it doesnt anywhere close to forever.
(posted on Sunday, January 2 by eii wyy nae.)
my dear eii wyy nae,
as i write this, im honestly exhausted & im strangely comforted knowing that as a this new person, you probably are, too. bringing ‘newness’ into myself {whether its a new chapter of my life as in my case} takes energy & hard work; the kind that surprises me w/ how tired i got so fast, over seemingly nothing. add the woes of having no idea what im doing & wondering if im the world's first person who really cannot not manage this new thing i just brought into the world & i can find myself in a confidence crisis before i know it.
here's what i know about being new @ something : its not easy. its scary. its not really that fun. its @ the same time strangely thrilling. its nerve~wracking. its humbling. its awe~inspiring. its exciting. it can make me feel dumb. it does not last anywhere close to forever, even though it feels like it. being new, actually, when i think about it, is over much faster than i think.
these are the times when it is critical to put my measuring stick away. there is no gold standard for good behavior now. there is no established criteria for good person or bad person. there's just the new & the not~so new. the exhausted & the tiny~bit~more~rested. the oh~i~get~it~now. & the i~just~cant~get~this~yet.
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Signed with love,
the diarykeeper, eii wyy nae.
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