heck i made it all the way to mid feb before my first gripe. i think that is pretty good ... for me. i’m sure my lack luster attitude is also in part to my healing that has been less than smooth since {youknowwhatitis,dontyou}. it has been a roller coaster ride of dilemmas & hitches with the everyday processes of my mind & mine are so not natural these days.

to be honest i’m worried. i really had no choice but to get all this work done but now i worry that perhaps i was not fixable. maybe all i need is more time. it has only been nearly a year but still i worry. i try & put on the good face but inside i feel out of control, unwell & unsure.

so today i look for comfort in the words of a very wise bear ... maybe you too need his words.

~ “if ever there is tomorrow when we're not together. there is something you must always remember. you’re braver than you believe, stronger than you seem & smarter than you think." ~ winnie the pooh.

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i’ve seen the truth & it doesn’t make sense.

Signed with love,
the diarykeeper, eii wyy nae.

Labels: fixable, gripe, long walks, luster attitude, roller coaster ride, wise bear.