♥ {confessional, sweet battle && interrupted thoughts} ♥

so off scat, beegone w/ you.

(posted on Friday, December 10 by eii wyy nae.)

“what do you do each day that doesnt contribute to your writing & can you eliminate it?” ~ is this a trick question. i thought. because everything i’d contributes to my writing. i mean everything. if im sad, thats the contribution ~ did i not & do i not still, write my way through grief & heartbreak. the whole point of my writing is to spin little yarns about the everydayness of every day, whatever that everydayness may bee. ive typed words~a~plenty about having nothing to say. so i was confused. befuddled. wondered if perhaps the question was what do i not do each day but thats just a rewording, just semantics, so nope, that couldnt bee it.

i reread the question again & felt a bit of annoyance. who does this guy think he is. i wondered. 2nd day in, throwing out a question like this, a question that kinda sorta hints that if youre doing anything that doesnt serve the god of writing, you aint got passion enough, commitment enough, to even consider being a writer; so off scat, beegone w/ you. but that brought me back to my original thought; everything contributes. it all does. even the parts that temporarily keep me from writing contribute in the long run, even the parts like i cannot get enough rest, i cannot sleep, im exhausted & is that what he is asking. about those shut~down times.

i dunno. ive thought about it all day & i thought, like others, well ive to work to find the time to write, but not really not really, ive time, i’d. there are days i dont use it well but he said each day. i dont have time for everything every day & sometimes that means that day i may not write but if there is something else that needs to bee done ~ laying on the damn couch watching hallmark channel movies one after the other because its been a bad day & those mindless plots are the only thing that will stop the worry & overthinking & allow me to get up the next day & begin again; that something else that needs to bee done is something that contributes to my writing. i’ll find the words for it or not but it contributes to who im & who im sits in front of this computer most nights & writes, whether anyone sees it or not.

"it all contributes, she says so arrogantly." i know what youre thinking; youre aghast that i would take this approach. who do i think im. markham. hemingway. t.r. by god pearson. nope. not even close. but here's the deal ~ even the things i would choose to eliminate contribute.

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Signed with love,
the diarykeeper, eii wyy nae.

Labels: everydayness, god pearson., hallmark channel, hemingway, little yarns, markham, mindless plots, scat

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