to take the one hand i know.
awhile back i declared to save the only thing i was able to save ~ my life. i set out on an exploration, an excavation into my heart & souls inner desires. i vowed to myself to find out what it is that truly moves me. what really makes me happy. what i stand for. i explored my thoughts, dredged up the past & tried to piece meal it all together.
this declaration was at first stated silently & without me even knowing. it was brewing inside, manifesting slowly & yet my mind couldn’t even grasp the concept. overtime i grew more conscious of this thought. i focused on my bravery, the sadness that took hold in eye opening moments & the happiness that just seemed to unfold before me.
i declared that i wanted to celebrate myself in the form of declaring that i was the one i’ve been waiting for.
i was the one i’ve been waiting for. all this time of searching for someone, thinking i needed a partner to lean on, being fearful to step out & take the leap, afraid of knowing who i was. all this time it was right there within me. my courage, my passions, my desires, my wants. the answers to all of the questions i had always asked myself ~ like what made me happy, what did i stand for, what wasiI passionate about.
the whole time the answers were in me just waiting to be discovered, nurtured & tended to. when you take the time to care for something it grows & when you truly nurture & love it, it blossoms in ways you never thought possible. mind blowing, exhilarating, magical ways.
i saw you. && you saw me. but it meant zilch.
Signed with love,
the diarykeeper, eii wyy nae.
Labels: courageous, excavation, eye opening moments, magical ways, mind blowing, piece meal., wasiI
