♥ {confessional, sweet battle && interrupted thoughts} ♥

i’m betting that word is ‘valentimes’.

(posted on Sunday, February 14 by eii wyy nae.)

dear valentimes, i’m single. so come a little closer.

i’m vulnerable. i’m hurting. there is pain within me that absolves the current of everything else. outwardly i think the world wants to see my happy face, the perfect life that never crumbles. inwardly i no longer have the energy to keep up the show.

it was the broken, brittleness of these petals that drew me to the plant. as i was capturing its delicacy in the fading afternoon light, i realised that it is the brokenness of the human heart that draws me most compellingly to individuals.

few people can speak frankly, openly & honestly about the messy areas of their lives. i realised in this moment, that every time i’ve been able to open up my own wounds & when i’ve allowed those around me to do the same, that a true friendship has been born. & it is these same friendships that have withstood time & distance & even silence.

it can be no other way i realise. our pain is the inverse of our healing. our pain is our need & our desire exposed. our controversies are the point at which we are truly human & before these occur, life holds little meaning. so if you’re hurting today, please allow it to be exactly what it is. it is the most human aspect of your being. & to god that is the point at which HE can enter.