♥ {confessional, sweet battle && interrupted thoughts} ♥

all that it needs to bee.

(posted on Friday, February 5 by eii wyy nae.)

how do you fill space. do you occupy or collide. do you seep in or thunder. how do you form yourself like dough into gentle mould conform or rigid like twig from branch rebel. how do you go gently unassuming observant or boisterous as would the calf. how do you sleep a tender ball waiting to be pursued or with passion. do you seek. how do you hold onto. into. near to. where to. how do you seek with glancing scarcity or with intensity. do you pierce or do you wound. do you fight or do you overcome. do you live or do you breathe.

i asked god. in fact i was rather particular about exactly what i wanted & i knew that in human terms i was asking too much.

it was friday afternoon. i wanted a reflection of the sunset in a pool of water. i also knew that it was late & that the sun was already behind the hills but that i knew god could make a plan. in expectation maaa drove a little faster, chasing vanishing light. & there it was ... just as i summitted the hill. maaa breaked so hard & sped around the car to get my cam out. i knew that i only had a matter of minutes left to capture a dying gift of light. as i stood in the cold evening air, i knew that HIS presence was very near.

it felt like a dream suspended between dark earth & dark sky. the universe in perfect balance, i must have been there at just the right moment. a minute earlier would have been too early. a minute later would have been too late. i'm jealous, i think.

but ..."thank you", the words a whisper from these lips.

anyways vynn & i watched a very moving film last night. youtube. please do go & watch "the boys are back", starring clive owen. it is a true story about love, affairs, divorce, children from different marriages & death. it is a story of how the soul can survive the beautiful mess that is called life. & just for the record my favourite part of the movie is where harry & art sit in the bath tub, splashing water all over the place, in the middle of the long blades of grass. it takes me straight back to my own childhood. i had a bath tub, the exact same.

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