♥ {confessional, sweet battle && interrupted thoughts} ♥

wanna bunk up with a really nervous girl.

(posted on Tuesday, January 12 by eii wyy nae.)

i've got a secret to tell you. okay, maybe it's more of a confession. i’m not who you think i’m. i may come off confident & secure in myself here on the bloggy blog, but that's not me in real life. i despise being in large groups, especially where i don't know anyone. when i'm in a large crowd with my loveliest, i’m basically like velcro on their side. i always beg my sidekick to come along so i don't have to be alone with strangers & i'm terrible with small talk.

i used to be the unusual way {before god put me with a man who would later become a *censored* ... it forced me to come out of my shell} now, i’ve so much problem meeting new people & not actually look forward to it, going out of my way to introduce myself. me. so not me.think about it this way ... everyone else is probably nervous, too. be yourself, smile & have fun.

here on the blog, i can promote myself up & down, but when it comes to ‘selling’ myself "for reals", i panic~k. my heart starts racing & i pull away. why am i telling you this. because i need your support. i just did something really big. or really stupid. or it could be great. butterflies.

so if you are going to somewhere~blissdom & you see me, i'm cowering in a corner all by myself, please be nice & say hi . i'm going to do my very best to come out of my shell, if only for a few days & really get out to meet all the amazing women {only, hopefully} that will be there. i’m excited for the semester two. but also really, really scared. i need courage & confidence. prayers accepted here.

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