♥ {confessional, sweet battle && interrupted thoughts} ♥

i have come a long way since this.

(posted on Monday, December 14 by eii wyy nae.)

i’ve broken my bones & watched them slowly mend with a groan & an ache in rainy seasons & cold skies. i’ve experienced deep cuts in the depths of my spirit. i've licked my wounds & pressed my fingertips into the gapin an effort to staunch the flow. i've watched dark clouds close over me rapidly knitting into a canopy of self-doubt, regret, anger & frustration.

i’ve lost my way. i’ve been run down. i’ve been worn around the edges & i know what it is like to wonder if i would ever see the light again. but i also know this: not one day, not one moment has any of it ever kept me from wanting to SOAR.

i don’t have any glamorous features that you’ll remember. no big brown eyes to fall into. no lips so full they remind you of the moon. legs that go on forever. nope. not those either. no athletic shoulders or muscular abs. no thick hair that you secretly want to touch. no perfectly blushed cheeks or snow capped teeth that will blind you.

but that will listen & understand the pain you carry inside & a heart that will hold you close. my arms will always be able to wrap around you like a blanket & keep you safe from your won ugly thoughts. my fingers will gently wipe away the tears you don’t feel but that i see & when the day is over & the night is thick with darkness, i’ll be there with a flashlight. under my chin to scare you & you’ll throw a pillow at me & then we’ll dance to music turned up so loud that you’ll only see my lips move when i say, “everything’s gonna be alright”.

that’s what you’ll remember about me. oh & maybe that my neck is so not giraffe like.

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