a message for you.
please excuse my dust as this blog site is still under construction.
she had a point.
(posted on Friday, December 4 by eii wyy nae.)
let’s see.
i’m supposed to know what to do now.
i’m supposed to be past this/past that.
i’m supposed to have a partner by now.
i’m supposed to know if i want a partner or not.
i’m supposed to have it all figured out.
i’m supposed to want a boyfriend.
i’m supposed to start dressing like a grown-up &
stop shopping in the junior section already. joking.
i’m supposed to to be more like other people i know.
i’m supposed to return phone calls & emails promptly.
i’m supposed to know how to properly style my own hair.
the list goes on, i’ll spare you the drama. she asks me, “okay, what are the things you do know.” ... “i know i love my long stretches of quiet. i know i feel my best when i’m laughing. i know i cherish my friends like precious jewels. & i know who i’m & what i’m here to do.”
why can’t that be enough. she wants to know. -why.
because i don’t know where. the where i’m not clear on.
but oh but the where is only an external
force & will not bring you happiness.
you’re going to be with yourself
where ever you go.
the where is now irrelevant.
she had a point.
~~~
what keeps me up at night is the ghost of you.
Signed with love,
the diarykeeper, eii wyy nae.
