♥ {confessional, sweet battle && interrupted thoughts} ♥

saying bye & letting go to winter wonderland, salt water & all.

(posted on Tuesday, December 29 by eii wyy nae.)

& dear december 25th,

you were so full. & you’re actually still happening, so really, there was just so much of you - i couldn't blog properly about you. ~ you were silly faces & chapped lips. you were santa hats & gatherings with family. you were thrifting. you were full of celebrations. you were nutcracker. you were homemade marshmallows. & cooking with family. you were full of friends & love. you were handmade lotion & ornaments.

you were kitschy. & also filled with lots of naps by the christmas tree. red cheeks. you were fires outside in the snow, just because you were sledding but when you get down to the bare bones of it, december, you were pure love.

dear december 26th,

my plans to show you my wrap up of the christmas fair season will have to wait. i've learned that it's okay for plans to change & things to wait. it will happen, just not as planned. it's not often that i share such things here but last week, i had an unexpected & very sad dream of a dead ghost {if-you-know-who-i-meant}.

this time of year is no time of year for such things of course but no matter when these things happen it never seems right or fair or okay. just sad. so we've been away, off on the ‘cape’ as a family, gathering together & having quite the adventure in a blizzard that decided to come on up & join us. it's rare that there is ever this much snow {20+ inches} down there by the sea but it called us to go on out & explore. so we did.

also because we couldn't see out the windows because everything was plastered in white. so off we went, coco, maaa, daddy & i ... all bundled up, down the street ... down to the beach. their beach. it was quite a site. they seem to have caught the north’s snowstorm here & so does in oklahoma today, or so i heard - 10 inches & it's still going strong. we aren’t at all used to it here in the southwest but it sure is pretty. & i would have to see if i’ve any clothes warm enough to venture out for pictures.

dear december 27th,

the weather has changed rapidly, all the snow is gone which fills my world with only the colors – brown, grey & moody faded greens outdoors. i needed a little more after all the sparkles of christmas. the lights of the candles reflecting in all the silver & white decorating that's in my tree & our hotel.

oh yeah. it's still there in all its beauty standing tall in the hotel’s living room, yet it feels like it's time to let it go & heads home. clean up maaa’s home & start with fresh new goodies. this little fellow is cheering me up & is given me a peek into how maaa’s home is decorated with grey tones & a touch of brown encircled in white's & just here & there a dot of the finest color.

it's time to let go of the christmas tree & all it's decorations but not quite yet. a couple more days i’ll enjoy the sparkles & the silver that christmas brings along. the angel on top of my tree, i'll keep close to my heart for a couple more days & all i'll be doing is ... holding still. & yep, i’m staying still. trying to enjoy a bit more silence in my day.

i love to listen to christmas music in the summer & to watch the faces it causes people to pull. amazing. yet, it is hard to wave goodbye to the taillights of christmas without shedding a few tears. don't worry though, its headlights will reappear in just 365 more days.

i'll be back to you, winter wonderland. it's time to catch up on the holidays before they get ahead of me - off to finally wrap up the presents.

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