♥ {confessional, sweet battle && interrupted thoughts} ♥

& the ungoodbye.

(posted on Wednesday, August 12 by eii wyy nae.)

she embodies joy, wonder & happiness. she truly does. no one can take their eyes off of her. she was the happiest person we've ever met.

i wish that part of the story was happy but it wasn’t. & there’re no pictures of it, because it isn’t something we would want a picture of. it's a difficult thing to watch someone fade away. i've never done that before. somehow i’d have to live with that fact. it's even harder when that person seems to be giving up on loving & we can't figure out why. we were angry & frustrated. she was frightened when she saw the end came & then hid in her mommy's arms. her mommy had to take her outside. but there’re times when things will be the way they are & no amount of hoping can make it any different. some people will go down a rabbit hole where we cannot follow.

pappy has a saying that i always remember: "you can't make unhappy people happy. you can only make happy people happier."

i wish things would have been different for all of us. i don't know how much longer this feeling will be around, & this is probably the last time i'll write about him. i’m trying, i’m trying. it feels like she's given up on herself, & in doing so, has left us all behind much earlier than we would have wished.

i saw the boy again. for the second time. why can’t my mind make you a stranger. why can’t my heart sense you a stranger. like a giant firebolt burning within my heart. i wasn’t sure if you were looking my way or you were just looking down, staring the floor for a moment. i couldn’t raise my head up, meeting your brown eyes once again. as i passed by, made a distance from you, i heard you laughed & chuckled. do you laugh the same way when i was by your side as it is now? heart, you make me blue.

Signed with love, charlie wyy.

Labels: blue., stranger

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