a message for you.
please excuse my dust as this blog site is still under construction.
it doesnt matter how long you were gone though i can still beat myself up about that.
(posted on Sunday, February 20 by eii wyy nae.)
as a matter of fact, i was still partying pretty heavy this morning. until the tears started to flow. i had felt teary a couple of times over the last 2 weeks, but i always pushed those tears back. well the dam broke this morning & i couldnt even stop the tears if i wanted to. i didnt want to. i knew in my heart that i needed these tears. i needed to loosen up all the yuck that i been building up for the past 2 weeks. it wasnt mucinex or nyquil that i needed, it was a good cry.
as the tears fell i felt all the 'whines' that i was hoarding begin to loosen their grip. i loosened up the negative labels i had attached to myself. i loosened up the insecurities & the fears. i had begun to convince myself of. i loosened up the resentments i held against people close to me. i say loosened because i dunno that ive completely released these things, but i definitely feel that they are not weighing me down like they had been. my cough & sinus pressure has decreased significantly as well.
coincidence? i think not. i think that my spirit just got tired of being told to go sit down & wait for the party to bee over. my spirit knew that the party was getting out of hand & needed to bee busted up. so ive stopped the whining & let my spirit lead me back to a safe place. the place within my heart where the self~talk is gentle & kind. where i can open my mind to all the good that exists for me. i feel peace here within.
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Signed with love,
the diarykeeper, eii wyy nae.
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