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i was a hopeless case.
(posted on Sunday, February 6 by eii wyy nae.)
this fear is beautiful. the lump in the throat, shoulders raised in self defense; the body one large knot. this fear is beautiful. wild mind planning against future catastrophe. voices shouting, “no, no, no!” this fear is beautiful. a little girl crying, “kong kong, dont go!” a woman holding her close. this fear is beautiful. a doorway to compassion. a gift of love, only i can give.
there is a difficult situation in my life right now. it has evoked so much anger, hurt & ultimately fear. im reciting compassion phrases both silently & out loud. im reflecting on gratitude & journaling about at least 5 things im grateful for each day.
i thought of what was most difficult about this situation. i realized i believed that i would always bee fearful & that things would never change. i believed that the fear was ugly & that i was a hopeless case. i know that im not this fear. it is a wave that arises & passes through this oceanic body. if i run away from it, i deny my own beauty, my right to live in this sea of wonder.
im mermaid, proud of my skin, opening my heart, exploring my home. it is all beautiful.
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Signed with love,
the diarykeeper, eii wyy nae.
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