a message for you.
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shoulding all over yourself.
(posted on Wednesday, December 15 by eii wyy nae.)
ah. the “shoulds”, unfortunately i know what its like to bee bullied by the shoulds. i would never assume to know how you feel but can share how it yields me feeling, which is small. its painful to have such a bright freak’n beacon inside forced by the shoulds into being dull & small. you know how much energy it takes to snuff a star ~ mama!
everything, all me presence & will which usually translates into being exhausted & not having the energy to engage creativity let alone warm fuzzy feelings. during moments like these its all i can do to eat toasted tea cakes & coffee becomes a necessity to gather what energy is left from all the dimming of light. i share this as a way to illustrate empathy, i get it, battling w/ the shoulds is shitty. you know why. cause your “SHOULDING ALL OVER YOURSELF” yuck.
what helps me is to take a time out, breathe, listen to whats up inside. what is needing my presence. what is hurting. angry. if i can hold space for those hurting places of disappointment, the shoulds go poof ~ vanish. by embracing what im i organically release defending what im not, that inner struggle goes poof. even if what im in the moment is pissed, hurt whatever, its what is & will pass, especially if i accept it in that moment. its the denying what is that yields me turmoil. ive found that sometimes my inner tantrums are simply asking for a nap, coffee & some toasted tea cakes & once those needs are met i can enter creativity again, minus the inner fuss.
but we all have our ups & downs, we all have the blues from time to time ~ you know what you need; some bobblehead! but just like the saying from a little children’s movie called “peter pan”, always move towards your happy thoughts whenever youre feeling down.
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Signed with love,
the diarykeeper, eii wyy nae.
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