i want to run more & more & more, but am able to do so less & less & less. i want to stay up very late to finish a book, but my eyes start to droop around midnight. i want to take good care of kong kong all in one day & have energy left over for uni. i want to stay beside him talking, laughing until it grows dark. i want more. more time. w/ kong kong.

i dont want to reinvent the wheel, i just want a newer bicycle. one w/out any rust or scars or missing spokes. one that lets you pedal backwards when you want to, in case you missed something. i want to understand life before its too late, while i still have time to enjoy it w/ kong kong. i want to appreciate, while i still have the strength to pedal.

now i think im ready to pare things down, remove that extra set of wheels, pick up speed. i want to fly down a hill w/ the wind in my hair, or coast past my house w/ my hands waving high in the sky. i want to let go. of things, emotions, barriers, clutter. all that clumsy baggage that keeps me from gliding along, bumps & potholes that make for a very rough ride. i want the life that ive & the life that i want to become the very same thing. i want to ride into the sunset, keep going all night & circle the sun @ dawn. i want to race time w/ one eye on the prize.

ive no illusions, i know i’ll fall. plenty of times. but thats okay, i plan to get right back up. next semester. promise. unless, of course, i break a hip. & then im going to cry like a baby.

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