♥ {confessional, sweet battle && interrupted thoughts} ♥

everything feels like a bruise.

(posted on Sunday, September 13 by eii wyy nae.)

all i see is black & white & you, this september came early - loaded with spies, their eyes make you disappear - here, putting in the hours to make me miss you, head to toe, this september butters my toast, the bread you said you needed most, of all; didn't anybody tell you it would put hairs back on your chest? - dense, like the secret meeting we had with the sunrise, a sky so far around the bends it burst in gold:

you better wait for me:

these feet are out of step & don't tell me i am incomplete, when they're stood outside your house, on your street, please don't ever stop. the blanket in his hands had no colour at that time of night. not that it mattered. the stars held their shine & neither of us could decide on yellow or white. the science i muttered meant nothing to him. together we knew two constellations & our fingers held onto each others as our eyes ate up the sky. he puts his hand under my jumper, it’s not cold out. i think about kissing him on the mouth, on the lips, on every inch of his face but i just toke on my joint & kiss his coconut hair - i doubt he felt me. not that it matters. tonight when he’s asleep i wish i could muster up the courage to tell him.

~~~ who are you now. are you still the same or did you change somehow. what do you do at this very moment when i think of you. & when i am looking back how we were young & stupid, do you remember that? no matter how i fight it can't deny it just can't let you go. i still need you, i still care about you though everything's been said & done. i still feel you, like i am right beside you but still no word from you.

now look at me instead of moving on, i refuse to see that i keep coming back & i am stuck in a moment that wasn't meant to last {to last}. i have tried to fight, it can't deny it. you don't even know that i still need you, i still care about you though everything's been said & done; i still feel you like i am right beside you but still no word from you. wish i could find you, just like you found me then i would never let you go {without you}. ~~~

please don’t ever stop.

Signed with love,
the diarykeeper, eii wyy nae.

Labels: coconut hair, incomplete, jumper., muster

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