♥ {confessional, sweet battle && interrupted thoughts} ♥

the soul trees.

(posted on Sunday, June 7 by eii wyy nae.)

- taken from march's collectos.

i am sitting here in the middle of paintings & almost complete paintings, the weather outside is wonderful, i have another 4 day weekend, tilly~belle dear is sleeping in her personal spot of sunshine outside the front door, the tv is on but the sound is off, & i am waiting for gel to dry on a rather large canvas. it will be a while. i could wait until everything is well & truly complete to ponder this turn of events, & i no doubt will ponder away when it is over, but how do i feel right now, in the midst of it, past the middle, almost done, almost ready?

past the angst, past the worrying, past the will they like me, will they like my stuff? i feel ready. i feel okay, let's do it.

i have been in contact with a woman about a spot in a street art market in last november (actually the weekend of my daddy’s bup-day.), a juried show in a town about an hour from here, & although they usually want only those who are experienced with this street fair kind of event, she is hopeful i will participate, which is flattering & scary at the same time. it costs money & it makes me think about all this art stuff more seriously.

i need a little peace, a bit of a break, but i am unwilling to take tilly~belle dear away from her home right here, so here i will stay while she is still with me. too many things to think about, too many decisions, too many thises & thats.

the above painting
was the painting with the too-green trees.
i knew they wouldn't stay green.
i needed them to be peaceful.
Quiet.
iI may call them The Quiet Trees.
it looks like a place for whispers,
& there is nothing to stop the wind.
no place to hide.
hmp . . . i hadn't thought of that.

a place of honesty.
a place to show your soul.

signed with my sister's love,

Nicci.D

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